It occurs to me that many times during the peak Mareacion and Force of "The Medicine" (La Madre Ayahuasca) - I am "challenged" to relinquish these "Magnificent Burdens" - and I simply refuse. Many in the "Medicine World" speak of "surrender" as some sort of absolutely necessary orientation - a panacea - and I reflexively disagree with any idea that is "consensus." For me, I fight with all I have to "Hold" - to "Carry" my Magnificent Burdens - as it is my (perhaps stubborn? perhaps foolish?) way of Honoring those whom I have lost. An act of defiance in their Honor - a purification for "worthiness" - in Remembrance of My Great Beloveds.
I relate to this on every single level. The Reaper (death) has taught me more about Life than anything else. These lessons always cut the deepest, and never have any clear "answers" and perhaps that is the point. It is a journey not conveyable with words, although you did an excellent job here. All I know is... its a profoundly painful experience that I personally was helped by, just by reading it, because it reminds me that I am not alone. Secondly, i will say that it has deepened my capacity for Love. I am better at loving others and feeling love... maybe not from people but from a higher source. The main thing the Reaper has taught me is that the only thing that matters in this life is Love (and the way we make other people feel, that is the true legacy) -- all else is noise. And how quiet it gets in the wake of our loved ones passing. Much love to you, and thank you for this.
Thank you for Bearing Witness. I made an edit since you read and commented. I forgot to add my long "Held" Prayer. The Prayer that was "Gifted" to me - as I am only Its messenger. It "connects" to the Magnificent Burden(s). May Peace Be Upon You 🙏💖🔥🌈
It occurs to me that many times during the peak Mareacion and Force of "The Medicine" (La Madre Ayahuasca) - I am "challenged" to relinquish these "Magnificent Burdens" - and I simply refuse. Many in the "Medicine World" speak of "surrender" as some sort of absolutely necessary orientation - a panacea - and I reflexively disagree with any idea that is "consensus." For me, I fight with all I have to "Hold" - to "Carry" my Magnificent Burdens - as it is my (perhaps stubborn? perhaps foolish?) way of Honoring those whom I have lost. An act of defiance in their Honor - a purification for "worthiness" - in Remembrance of My Great Beloveds.
I relate to this on every single level. The Reaper (death) has taught me more about Life than anything else. These lessons always cut the deepest, and never have any clear "answers" and perhaps that is the point. It is a journey not conveyable with words, although you did an excellent job here. All I know is... its a profoundly painful experience that I personally was helped by, just by reading it, because it reminds me that I am not alone. Secondly, i will say that it has deepened my capacity for Love. I am better at loving others and feeling love... maybe not from people but from a higher source. The main thing the Reaper has taught me is that the only thing that matters in this life is Love (and the way we make other people feel, that is the true legacy) -- all else is noise. And how quiet it gets in the wake of our loved ones passing. Much love to you, and thank you for this.
Thank you for Bearing Witness. I made an edit since you read and commented. I forgot to add my long "Held" Prayer. The Prayer that was "Gifted" to me - as I am only Its messenger. It "connects" to the Magnificent Burden(s). May Peace Be Upon You 🙏💖🔥🌈