My Beloveds Include The Dead
My life is forfeit, this I know, so I choose to “Hold” that which matters most
In my previous post – and this one, I inadvertently used the same leading image. In this post, it’s clear choice – as this image not only pays homage to my Late, Great Lefty (Hanuman-ji) – but also to the Sacred Vow He taught me – helped me embody – and came to represent. Yes, it’s a line from “The Matrix Reloaded” by the character “Seraph,”
but it came to represent the very THING that provided so much essential guidance, so much essential TRUTH, so much essential purpose – so that I could finally find “ground” in the midst of utter chaos and seeming catastrophe (“Ambiguity Increasing”) during my Maha Crucible(s) within the Sacred Medicine space – and the metaphorically mirrored in my day-to-day life. It became my lifeline for sanity in the midst of insanity. Service.
Call me a romantic, call me an idealist, hell, call me delusional or even insane, but understand that this – my Immortal Vow literally saved my life. If ever I could impress something upon you, it would be THIS, that you carry, you “Hold” your own, unique version of this. It’s as if you were sent here to ANCHOR IT. The trick is to discover IT – to remember IT – and to HONOR IT. IT may come to save your life too – but then again, you’re already dead – so what is it that doesn’t die? What is it that truly matters?
I believe in the concept of my Highest Self – the Highest Art my Soul can attain. That which is closest to Spirit – that which has returned (?) to Spirit. Moksha. Liberation. But also, that which can provide the Divine, aspirational guidance for the ultimate expression or embodied “blueprint” of my life (Soul) on Earth. Not an “indifferent,” (lofty, aloof, unconcerned, separate, etc.) entity whatsoever – but that which is inherently invested (connected) in my Soul’s evolution. An evolution to complete Yoga or union – a complete reunification of Soul and Spirit. Like a Mother’s and Father’s ultimate wish for Their child – from the basis of Their Highest Selves and unconditional LOVE.
I extend this belief – this concept – to my Ancestors and to my Deceased Beloveds. I believe that I have a “Host of Angels” (outside of the Christian pantheon) that includes my late Parents, late Teachers, late Friends, late Animal Companions, etc. All these Great, Great Beings who are Serving me from the “vantage point” of their Highest Selves – their Highest Expressions – their (The) Highest Art. From the basis of the Highest “The Good, The True, The Beautiful.”
I finally understood why I’ve been “put through” my “Maha Crucible” – my “Dark Night of the Soul.” To be repeatedly (incessantly?) put through the proverbial meat grinder during Sacred Ceremony – and to then “See” the same occurring (manifesting?) in my “normal” life seems to have been a Divine Curriculum I somehow “stumbled upon” – preparing me for these insane times. It became apparent that my Spiritual Journey was where I had to evolve from my Immortal Vows as being a simple “survival strategy” – to that of my Great Honor.
Temet Nosce. Amor Fati. Memento Mori.
Praise Be To Hanuman
The Breath, Great Servant, and Hammer of R-A-M-A and S-I-T-A
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“He can see above the clouds; my other ears that hear above the winds. He is the part of me that can reach out into the sea. He has told me a thousand times over that I am his reason for being: by the way he rests against my leg; by the way he shows his hurt when I leave without taking him.(I think it makes him sick with worry when he is not along to care for me.) When I am wrong, he is delighted to forgive. When I am angry, he clowns to make me smile. When I am happy, he is joy unbounded. When I am a fool, he ignores it. When I succeed, he brags. Without him, I am only another man. With him, I am all-powerful. He is loyalty itself. He has taught me the meaning of devotion. With him, I know a secret comfort and a private peace. He has brought me understanding where before I was ignorant. His head on my knee can heal my human hurts. His presence by my side is protection against my fears of dark and unknown things. He has promised to wait for me... whenever.wherever--in case I need him. And I expect I will--as I always will miss you.” ~ Author Unknown.
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